THIS REVIEW CONTAINS SPOILERS.

I’ve been waiting for this book for months and it’s finally here!! I love this story of bravery and perseverance with all my heart. These characters, this world…it’s all so raw and real and it HURTS, but it is freaking incredible. This is the second book in Thomas and Nadia’s journey. The first book, The Sound of Salvation, introduces us to these two characters and how they fall in love. We also find out about Nadia’s past and who she’s running from. In this book we continue on her journey of self compassion and healing. It’s beautiful.
Nadia is a victim of domestic violence. She lived in New York with her boyfriend Adrian for years while he suffered from substance abuse which turned him violent. One instance got so bad that she ran away to London to be live with her brother, and that is where the beginning of the first book begins. Throughout book one, Nadia meets and falls in love with her brother’s friend, Thomas. A playboy-turned-hero by Nadia’s standards. He calms her. He’s the only person whose touch doesn’t make her cringe or remind her of abuse. At the end of book one she leaves Thomas in London and flies back to New York because Adrian tried to commit suicide and failed. She feels indebted to him, like it’s her responsibility to help him get back on track. And of course she still loves him, but she’s not in love with him anymore. This is where book two begins.
We suffer through the first fifty percent of this novel. Why? Because Thomas is miserable and Nadia is in pain, both emotional and eventually physical. Thomas tries to drown his sorrows in alcohol but nothing works. He’s so in love with Nadia that he can’t think straight. Nadia is back in New York with Adrian but she can’t sleep without Thomas. She misses him like the air in her lungs. She stole a t-shirt of his and brought it with her because his scent helps keep her calm, but eventually his scent fades. Things with Adrian get out of hand again and eventually she gives up hope that he will get better. She realizes that there’s nothing she can do to save him if he doesn’t want to save himself. She moves back to London. That’s when sh*t gets real. Thomas is dating someone new and it’s like taking a knife to the chest every time Nadia sees them together. It burns. Thomas is only trying to move on but he can’t. The moment Nadia finally tells him how she feels, it’s like a switch is flipped. All the walls he built come crashing down. He’s so in love with her that he can’t breathe or think straight. IT IS GLORIOUS.
There’s so much to say about this story, but it’s difficult to find the words. It’s difficult to understand what it’s like to be a victim of domestic violence if you’ve never been one. I think that sometimes makes Nadia difficult to relate to. Her actions and decisions seem ridiculous at times. It’s hard to get behind her decision to go back to New York to help Adrian after everything he did to her. It’s even more difficult to stay on her side when she continues to feel for him after he almost kills her a second time. But that’s just it, there’s no way to understand it, you just have to hope that she will learn to accept everything when the time is right for her. Which she does, in the book. She’s one of the strongest female characters I’ve ever read. The strength it takes to fight her fear and show compassion for a man who hurt her? That’s amazing! She is resilient and a phenomenally written character. I adored her. Thomas is just as incredible. Yes, he did struggle with anger towards Nadia, at the beginning of this novel, for her leaving him. But he continued to be there for her, as a grounding tool, when she needed him. He found the strength to forgive her and move forward with her when he realized that he truly is lovable. He is a good person and a strong partner. He had to learn to love and accept himself before he could understand why Nadia would choose him.
Overall, this was another 5 star read for me. It was so passionate and gorgeously written. I’m so thankful that I had the opportunity to read and review this ARC! I.A. Dice is a truly remarkable author, please give her a chance if you have some time! 5 stars!
I received this ARC in exchange for an honest review.








