“The truth is there, like it’s always been. Sunshine and storms share the sky, but never together.”

Where to even begin with this review? As I sit here, contemplating what to say, a certain word comes to mind: strength. Both of our characters exhibit beautiful strength during this novel, whether it be physical, mental, or otherwise. There’s a lot to be said about Ren’s physical strength, but contrasted with his gentle affection and genuine personality, it makes him a very well-rounded, incredibly captivating character. (And also my new favorite book boyfriend, but we’ll get more into that later). Frankie is a little more complex, though her body may be weak, her mind is strong. She has this presence about her that is incredibly striking and complex. Yes, she is autistic, but when she speaks about the masks she wears…I was blown away. To be able to so clearly understand what’s going on inside your mind and body at all time? That’s extraordinary. Frankie is remarkable and easily one of the best heroines I’ve ever read. 

I don’t really want to give you a synopsis of the story because I think it’s something you should read and experience for yourself, but I do want to mention some of my favorite parts. Highlights, if you will. Let’s talk Shakespeare. I was an acting major in college and let me tell you, there is nothing more sexy than a man who understands Shakespeare.  Ren has a freaking CLUB. Ladies, hold on to your panties because it only gets better. Ren recites sonnets and romantic lines from plays to Frankie. To express emotions he doesn’t use profanity, he curses in Shakespearean. I am overcome with emotions right now. I’m crying. Ren is actually a perfect character. There is no question. And to compliment Ren’s eternal sunshine, Frankie wears her signature scowl. Frankie is witty and resilient. She grounds Ren, she is the dark and he is the light. They are a perfect yin and yang. Frankie brings Ren back to reality, while Ren helps Frankie see outside of the box she’s put herself in. He nudges her along the road to self love and compassion. Because that’s what therapists are always saying, aren’t they? More self compassion! I was thrilled when I read about Frankie seeing a therapist to discuss her hangups on relationships. (SPOILER, MY BAD). Therapy is an important part of life, in my opinion. It always resonates with me when the characters I love also have therapists. 

Okay three more things I loved about this book: Pazza, Frankie’s pup. A Siberian Husky/Alaskan Malamute mix? ALUSKY. Gimme gimme. Also dogs make the greatest best friends and also incredible companions. Alright second thing. Soren. My computer doesn’t do the little cross through the “o” but you get what I’m going for here. That’s my son’s name. I don’t have a son yet, but one day, when I do have a son, that will be his name. Thank you and goodnight. Third thing. This is my first Own Voices book and it changed my life. It spoke to my soul. It will stay with me forever. there’s nothing like this book out there and nothing can compare. Chloe should be winning all kinds of awards for work as incredible as this. I only hope my review gives her a tiny taste of the adoration she should feel from her fans. I’m devoted to her and her work. I need it like oxygen. Freya and Aiden’s story can’t come quickly enough! 100 stars. 

P.S. Ren mentions that he catastrophizes something while at dinner with Frankie one night and nothing resonated more with me. I speak to my therapist about this on a weekly basis because this is something I do in almost every situation. I never felt more seen than I did it that moment. Thank you for that, Chloe. 

“It was always only you.”